I'm rereading my old fics and maaaan, do I miss writing. RP is fun, but doesn't compare, not to mention people who are worth writing with are disappearing faster than you can say RP. Real life takes them away. Mostly. Or drama. I fucking hate drama. That still doesn't make me want to stop the only writing outlet of mine these days. But... I still want to write things on my own. I know it's not really helpful to keep saying want want want and not to do anything about it. But I'm afraid no matter how much I want it, it won't really happen. Soon leaving for JP, there'll be nothing but work and then lives and finally people I miss so much on my days off. And the writing I am thinking about over there... if I should do any... is perhaps a little more carreer oriented.
About two weeks ago I was asked to write an article about Japanese suicides for an online magazine of a certain German institute in Prague. Apparently, one of the professors from my uni in Czech Republic recommended me as they knew what the topic of my BA thesis was. I wasn't really sure about whether I should write it or not, but I accepted anyway. Not for the money, but for the opportunity. I keep thinking, yes, I'd like to do this, to write about things I like and I know about. In the end, I managed to make the deadline and even got praised by the publisher lady who contacted me, although personally I hated the article. I had to cut the amount of words considerably from the original piece I wrote. I'm still in the academic mode I suppose and it's easy to forget that general public doesn't care about too much detail and also likes sensational view of things. For that reason, I could never be satisfied because I crave facts and accuracy. I suppose it's all that drill about quotation and possibility of copyright infringement if we don't cite properly that makes me a little paranoid too. Again, writing like this... is different. It's just habits that always always always die hard. The publisher lady told me to let her know if I have ideas for more articles. I think I'm going to tell her I'm moving to Tokyo and depending on the topic the magazine chooses for the particular month, I might be able to write something, perhaps even more contemporary. I am also thinking about starting a blog where I write about Japan. Write about Japan after I actually think properly what I am going to write about. Maybe in Slovak. So one day I can link a magazine or newspapers back home to it and say, look, this is where I live now, what interests me, what I think might be interesting for other people, and they'll say oh, okay, we like this, do it for us. I don't know. There is tht kind of writing too, right? It only makes me go crazy, that's not such a big toll.
On the other note, I might not be done with the kind of writing I am used to do. School. School. AWAYS AND FOREVER. There is still a possibility of me going back to school. I don't care about the degrees anymore. I sworn I would never go back. EVER AGAIN... EVER!!! I hate uni. I hate writing papers. I hate deadlines and stress and I hate being judged for the lack of my ability to think logically aka get my point across. You know... I got ideas, but if people don't understand them, they're pretty much useless. But... I like it there. I like reading, I like researching, I like knowing, and in the end I like using what I know. Either to help other people to know or just you know.... useless knowledge has been the greatest luxury of humankind since the second half of 20th century. Why not to use it? You can know and ... just know. Then I do agree with what Stuart, one of the protagonists of my fave show ever, Sirens, once said, there is a power in knowledge. I don't particularly feel any need for power or great success or anything like that, but... it feels good to know things other people might not. Perhaps I'm somewhat of an elitist when it comes to this.
Anyway, I don't even know where this entry was supposed to go. It's actually a perfect example of the way I write, I think. Such a stream of consciousness. No logic. Haha. Writing. I suppose at least that's one common theme here.
How is everyone? I am not really expecting an answer, since lol who's even still on lj? Well, always wishing for revivlas that will never come.